Monday, March 14, 2011

Diving Similan Islands on the MV Black Manta

I've heard of the Similans years ago and about manta ray encounters.  So really I've been looking forward to this dive trip for a long while.

Similans on Black Manta was a really good trip.  I correct myself, the best dive I've ever had.  That dive where there was an octopus at my feet, changing colors and then I choose to abandon it because the manta ray was about to swoop over my head again. Video of Octopus   Yes, it just circled us in huge circles over and over again.  The entire dive, all 45 mins. We were warned to approach the manta, to let it come to you & it did, over and over again, for all of the 45mins.  Awesome!  While it was not my first sighting of manta ray, it is the closest and best view I've ever gotten (possibly, ever will get again!).

The next day, we got our leopard shark sighting, it was almost 2m long.  I had enough time to squeeze at least 4 or 5 shots before some idiot came in too close and scared it off. 

After that, our greed quotient went up & we were hankering for whale shark sighting.  But no, we were already very blessed.

Last dive of the trip was a scary experience for me. Visibility was perhaps 5m max - it was murky.  I descended with everyone, got to 18m, at Boonsung Wreck, near Koh Bon.  By the wreck, I glimpse a huge puffer and squeezed off 2 shots.  In that 3secs, I lost sight of everyone. I had mentally taken a directional bearing before I stopped but I guessed the group moved forward away from the wreck towards sandy bottom.  In any case, I saw no bubbles & no one save for me beside the wreck.  I freaked.  Made for the surface without safety stop.   Sheer panic.  Fortunately for me it was a quiet dive spot, no other boats around and I popped up right by the side of our boat.  The boat crew saw me, threw me a line and hauled me in.  Mental note to self - 1. stay close to group when vis is bad, no fish photo is worth the panic! And 2. I need to start noting direction using the compass, be prepared to navigate myself back if necessary.

The only negative I had of the trip was the quality of the dive guides.  Dive guide lost me twice.  The earlier time I infiltrated another group, and somewhere in between, found the group back myself.  On another dusk dive where we emerged in the dark, I had freaked out during safety stop when Philip didn't show up.  Tak Gee using hand signals said Philip had gone up by the mooring line.  Dive guide didn't care or notice someone's missing.  Terrible.  We had complained but it still happened.



Rest of Similans LOB dive photos here
Video done up by Tak Gee (compliation of all our photos including mine)
Video using a HD videocam by Wing from HK

Everything else was perfect.  From the weather to the really fantastic Thai crew.  They were incredibly considerate, they'd even stick your fins on for you!  The kitchen crew and cook are fantastic!  The food was sooooo good!  Every single meal was great and we ate 5 meals a day, from my normal 2 meals a day!


There'll be a new boat, called the new White Manta.  Bigger and the cabins will be above water surface so no funny smells.  Starts in a few months and it'll sail to Layang Layang!  Hammerhead sharks!  Tempting... 

Monday, March 07, 2011

Excuse me, are you a runner - part 2

So last year some kaypo asked if I were a runner while I was in the Motorola pantry.

Last week while in the airport bus leaving Japan, these 2 women asked if I was also in Japan for the Tokyo Marathon. Well... I must look the part right?!! *beam*

Apparently cos I was wearing running shoes. Hmmm.

Sunday, March 06, 2011

OCBC Cycle 2011 - the night after

I should've taken the cue when Derek gestured at some clearly neophyte cyclists & said "beware these kinds".

Spent the 40km race, zig-zagging, yelling communications warnings "on your right, RIGHT!!!", a whole lot of start/stops - including a total standstill for an ambulance to get in. Saw quite a few spills this race - my guess caused by those weaving neophyte cyclists doing 10km/hr.

The last 10km became easier, smoother most likely because I had cleared most of those weaving, right lane hogging lousy cyclists doing 10km/hr. Of cos by then I started to tire a little valiantly attempting to hold 30km/hr speeds...

In the past, before a triathlon, I used to strip out every extra component on the bike that added weight - bags, lights, everything off.  Speed was everything.  Old habits die hard, I stripped my bag but kept my lights on for safety while cycling to/from event.  Now on hindsight, I should've just kept everything on - OCBC did not feel like a race at all!

My first ever cycling medal (single discipline ie)...














Oh and parking was a royal pain! Arranged with Derek to meet in front of Singapore Swimming Club but due to road blocks, he wasn't able to get there & parked elsewhere. My woes began trying to get to his new venue, plus my unfamiliarity with that area. Got lost again for almost an hour attempting to return to the car. Mental note to self - park in an area you are familiar with.

Nontheless a nice morning out cycling. And I pray that those hurt in the spills are ok - ambulance got in & out real quick.

Ode to a dog

There never was a furrier dog
Or a fighter that lived life-long.
I ne'er believe in heaven for dogs
But maybe some special fur balls ought!
Jesus could use a foot warmer,
Or a cheerful rug that also licketh

Cheer up Zi :)

Saturday, March 05, 2011

OCBC Cycle 2011 - the night before

I dare say this is my first cycling (single discipline) race ever.

So I am a little excited.

Will drive over to Singapore Swimming Club to rendezvous with Derek & Melvin, we'll then all cycle over to the starting line at the Grand Prix F2 pits.

My bike is tagged, race transponder tied to my tyre fork, helmut marked with my race number & I've just pinned my race number onto my cycling jersey.

I am no. 5170 :)

Bring it on!

This is great!

So usually it's only in Aug that you get all all red, white & patriotic.

But seriously, this song leaves a lump in my throat, probably from being away for too long.

Sudah jadi ta-ide, sudah loopa...

"Sudah jadi ta-ide, sudah loopa".

My mom said that to me yesterday.  In peranakan malay, translated loosely, means after you've eaten and digested, you forget.

It happened cos I wanted mom to cook bubur-hitam and she said she just bought me that dessert a couple of weeks ago. It was when I couldn't recall that, was when she said "sudah jadi ta-ide, sudah loopa", essentially her meaning was, you are an ingrate, you forget cos you've already eaten & digested.

And that's how I feel about Moo. You take & never once thought of anyone else but yourself. Cycling past me that night when my bike's chain fell off, that is not cool. But it reinforces who you are. Walking away in times of trouble, that just ain't cool.

Friday, March 04, 2011

Depressed

I am NOT happy!  To cope, I watched Grey's Anatomy season 7 episodes 1 to 10, took a break in Japan (I was happIER there, distracted with being a tourist), returned home to promptly watch the remaining 6 episodes at a go.

Yes, I watched until 4:15am this morning.

And yes, I am still depressed, in fact, worse because I woke up late and missed midday mass with Quek I Gek after I PROMISED her I'll be there with her.  This is not going well....

Here, I'll friggin list it out :
- I have no job, no man in my life, no sense of purpose, no own home
- Z just broke up with a great guy, about to not have a job, and her pet of 17+ yrs died last night
- A has 6 weeks til HP throws him out the door, he has 2 kids & a wife.  Just like that, unceremoniously pulling the rug out from under your feet.  I hate what HP has become, souless & mecernary.  WTF.
- J is under so much stress, no thanks to a lousy boss, and all the pressures of getting herself to wedding bells in church

Someone give me some good news, I'll settle for anything at this point!

Actually, I've gotten worse at this point.  I just realized I have no more episodes of Grey's Anatomy to watch & it's my only therapy since I am not running according to my marathon training plan & not working out & generally just a slug at home (my mom's home to be specific).   ARGGH.

Kill me now.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

Blessed are the poor in spirit

First sister Lily says this to me, and then I got one of those Christian emails yesterday & it was again on 'the poor in spirit'.

I googled it and Catholic Encyclopaedia says,
The word poor seems to represent an Aramaic 'ányâ (Hebrew 'anî), bent down, afflicted, miserable, poor; while meek is rather a synonym from the same root, 'ánwan (Hebrew 'ánaw), bending oneself down, humble, meek, gentle. Some scholars would attach to the former word also the sense of humility; others think of "beggars before God" humbly acknowledging their need of Divine help. But the opposition of "rich" (Luke 6:24) points especially to the common and obvious meaning, which, however, ought not to be confined to economical need and distress, but may comprehend the whole of the painful condition of the poor: their low estate, their social dependence, their defenceless exposure to injustice from the rich and the mighty. Besides the Lord's blessing, the promise of the heavenly kingdom is not bestowed on the actual external condition of such poverty. The blessed ones are the poor "in spirit", who by their free will are ready to bear for God's sake this painful and humble condition, even though at present they be actually rich and happy; while on the other hand, the really poor man may fall short of this poverty "in spirit".

So it's an attitude you adopt, where you lean heavily on God for your needs. 

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

March is going to be a great month yet

Feb 24 to Mar 1 - Japan trip
Mar 9 to 14 - LOB diving in the Similans
In discussion with mom for Mar 22 to 26 - Taiwan again.

I think I might just love this month!

Japan - my maiden voyage

I had fun visiting Japan. 
I realize how blessed I am, I picked the 2 hotels : Green Plaza Hakone was recommended by Meihar & Quemo - it offered fantastic views of Mount Fuji from our room!  Tokyo where we panic-ed a little because we booked a little late and our first choices were unavailable, I picked the Tokyo Prince Park from Tripadvisor and it was fantastic too!  From the room windows, you get view of Shiba Park and the Tokyo Towers.  Awesome view & the room is big and really comfortable.



















And Elmo was really nice.  I literally just followed her around and she was willing to go do sightseeing with me even though she'd rather be shopping.  All the museums, galleries, observatories, parks, palaces, shrines, she mostly did for me!
All the other 300+ pictures here.

Monday, February 28, 2011

Sakura!

My first trip to Japan & I got to meet up with my good buddy Emily!

Thanks to Emily, I mostly just followed her around since she can read a little of the Japanese kanji and also she does Japanese-accented English waaay better than me. :)   E.g. Glass museum, you say, gu-la-shi no-mo-ri or something to that effect!  And she can navigate the confusing network of Tokyo's trains cum MRT - every other station is an interchange station between a couple of lines, you really need to pre-plan your route.

We were blessed with really super good weather.  Weather so good, we had an awesome view of Mount Fuji from our room!  And even after we got back to Tokyo, weather was so great, the Tokyo Tower just behind us looms huge!  Today however, it rained and then sleet, and finally snow - maybe slush is more appropriate.  It got below zero.  My right hand got so cold it was painfully tinggling. 

We did it all, most of the touristy things.  Meiji Shrine, City View, Palace, flagship store of Mikimoto in Ginza, Shinjuku, Takeshita, lots of museums and art galleries from Hakone to Tokyo, outlet shopping at Gotempa, dressed in yukata for dinner, gazed at Mount Fuji... I didn't realize we got so much done in so few days.

And I forgot what a shoppaholic Elmo is, she browses EVERYTHING, from socks, to trinklets to touristy souvenirs, even 福 (lucky charms issued by Japanese temples which can be purchased for all purposes, from health to traffic safety!).

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

I turned down a role because I don't want to relocate again

Just turned down a Dell role to be based in Sydney because I'm not ready to leave Singapore.

He said he thought my experience was pretty "close to what he was looking for in the candidate" but it needs to be based in Sydney and if I couldn't, then the interview ended.

Am I crazy?  Perhaps I'll call him 1 month from now...

Bleeh...

Monday, February 21, 2011

Grey's Anatomy season 7

Season 7 started sometime September last year. I can't believe I didn't realize it until Michelle mentioned over the weekend. I am a big fan!

Anyhow, problem fixed with my little netbook downloading all night last night all 15 episodes of season 7.

Just saw episode 1 - edgy with the doctors coping with the deaths from the mass shootings!

Sunday, February 20, 2011

What are weekends for?

I recall the my highlight of weekends while living in Taipei was finding a new restaurant to try out. Totally worthless self-indulgence but something I took seriously.

The highlight of this weekend was cycling the 52.5km round trip to Yishun rockwall.

Zi & I did that perhaps 5 years ago & we were so tired after climbing, her dad came to get us.

This time around we cycled both ways despite crazy traffic, horribly bumpy road surface along Bt Timah Road, and a heavy downpour which we waited out sitting at Yishun coffeeshop, stuffing my face with mee rebus, a chicken wing & some of Zi's noodles.

Best!

Saturday, February 12, 2011

It never rains, it pours

Not a good day.

1. At 7:30am realize now front tyre of bicycle has gone flat. After some &:))@ at Rodalink, I had to inform Derek no cycling for me.

2. The Malaysian motorcyclist called me asking for $. Said his bike needs 2 months to fix. Either I give him $800 or he'll sue me for 2 months loss of earnings. Even though he admits damage only to his handlebars. Are they made of gold?!! And 2 months to repair? Spaceship or scooter? Madness.

3. Right after that call, when the phone rang again, I thought it was the greedy bloodsucker. But it was a shocked Jo who just rear-ended a car. She couldn't stop in time & was sobbing over the phone. The toll of work pressures, wedding preparations & all really getting to her. Let's pray for Jo.

And I pray for everyone tonight. May Jesus reign always.

PS just found out Michy beat me at Bejeweled Blitz. Grr!

Monday, February 07, 2011

Need to drive carefully this year...

First thing this morning, I called Liberty insurance to find out how to get Roar fixed asap.  They took down my particulars and told me to go to a Liberty prefered workshop to report.  I selected a few in the AMK/Sin Min area and googled them for good reviews in the local auto forums, and decided on 3. 

Then headed out for midday mass at Novena then to the auto repair place.  Francis had jio-ed me for midday mass and I went, but our friend didn't!  But he called and we agreed to meet at Sin Min.

The first shop at Sin Min quoted me $600+, my excess is $600, means I'll be poorer by $600+ out of pocket.  Gah!

By that time, Francis had arrived, inspected the damage himself and felt he could fix it himself. 

So I reported the accident for insurance, but chose not to fix it there. 

Then Francis helped me shove the headlight back into place & presto, it looks like no repair needed.  Totally saving $.




















But to bust my short-lived joy, I got stuck a $50 parking fine for parking at the loading/unloading bay.  I hate this year of the Rabbit.

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Bike fixed

At Rodalink, they fixed my back tyre. Speedy is good again. Roar next.

Friday, February 04, 2011

2 days into the year of the Rabbit & it's been bang no. 2

Derek arranged a dawn cycle on day 2 of the lunar new year.  When I got there to the carpark 10mins after 7, everyone was already there, save Jispal who was still cycling to East Coast...  Early bird catches the worm!

I didn't get any worms, I got more bad luck.

My back tyre was totally flat - must've picked up something at the Singapore Duathlon 2 weeks ago (thankfully didn't explode on me during the race). 

Corinna (so sweet) handpumped up my tyre - in the process, because her bike was unattended, some angmo woman carelessly knocked Corinna's bicycle to the ground.  Stupid angmo!  And when I started to ride, the back tyre deflated totally again.  This time, Derek, Melvyn & Robert changed the tube and pumped it up using Robert's gas canister (instant pumped up tyre).  Thankfully it lasted the ride, but the super pumped up tyre deflated itself after the ride, while I was driving home (3rd time deflating itself today).  Something is seriously wrong with the back tyre - possible a spoke is out of alignment or something.  GAH!  I need to take care of both my wheels : car and bicycle.

All of us outside the public toilets by the beach.  Incidentally, the guys carried their babies (read expensive bicycles) into the toilet with them.  Don't ask me which they were holding & how....


So in these eventful few days, I also count Michy's dad reversing his Mercedes and running down his home gate accident, Corinna's near death at the hands of an awful angmo driver as blessings.  Because collateral damage is nothing as long as nobody's hurt. 

I wish everyone a happy year of the rabbit and God's divine protective blood over every square inch of our bodies.  Be safe, be in Jesus' shadow!

Thursday, February 03, 2011

Into the Year of the Rabbit with a bang (literally)

First day of the lunar new year, I was driving mom, Bo Dae (4th aunty's husband) & aunty Florence over to Ah Neo's (eldest aunty) house.

I was planning to drop them off so they can start their annual mahjong session while I sneak home for a quick nap then return at dinner time.

As I approached & prepared to turn towards the lift lobby, mom suddenly yelled, I slammed on brakes but too late, collided with a motorcycle.

The Malaysian motorcycle didn't topple over : impact wasn't that bad. But their legs hit the car, so both of them rubbed their shins for a long while. I was shocked, offered to call an ambulance but the 2 Malaysians declined it, he kept repeating "my bike is very expensive". That plus it's a Malaysian plate, really worried us. Luckily I had Bo Dae & cousin Ah Yin's help. Bo Dae negotiated with them for a long time but finally they decided to report the accident.

Ah Yin accompanied me to the police station where we lodged a report. On Monday after the holidays, I'll fill in paperwork with the car insurers.

Then later, I received a call from the Malaysian, he wanted to know who'll pay his medical bill & when I told him that since we agreed to report it, he should claim insurance. He then stumped me with "my insurance got no $".

Sigh.

No point crying over spilt milk & will resist implications to the new year.  Get Roar fixed up & then move on.

Tuesday, February 01, 2011

Happy birthday Pa!

I still miss him after all these years...

Arigato Japanese people!

I've never visited Japan before... unless you count Narita airport, then yeah, I've been to Japan at least 20x!

Since I'm still sitting around and by now doing very little, might as well go visit another place that I've hitherto not been to.

Going to meet up with the Elmo there and we are calling the trip, "Operation Find 2 Marriageable Japanese Hunks".  On a secondary note, we're also visiting Mount Fuji so I can gawk at the dormant volcano with my own eyes and the old capital city of Kyoto.  Oh, I forget, also spend time with Elmo and eat some yummy raw fish (NOT!).  Probably need to bring my own blowtorch and get everything cooked!

I'll be missing a 168km cycle race since I'll be in Japan, pity!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Races this year 2011

23 January : Singapore Dualthlon (CHECK!)

3 March : OCBC Cycle Singapore (Next!)

28 May : Adidas Sundown Marathon (Will I survive a full marathon again, perhaps night running might be easier?)

August : SAFRA Army Half-Marathon/ Bay Run (my favourite event, I love the scenary)

December : Singapore Marathon (I'll do the half again, just need to beat 2:55 to get Jo off my back)

Hopefully I'll stay in decent shape to race all of them to the best of my abilities!  Inshallah!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

New Look!

New year, new look!

I've used my photo from the Taj Mahal trip because it's a watershed moment in my life : fulfilling a lifelong dream of seeing the Taj with my own eyes & being able to pursue happiness by leaving an unhappy job courageously.

There are more demons to battle in the days ahead, most of them in the form of my human relationships, but with God under my wing, what have I to fear...

Monday, January 24, 2011

What a blast: Singapore Duathlon 2011

Had a great outing at yesterday's race. Weather was a little hot but otherwise perfect.

I had a rough goal of 3hours and if not for withering in the last 5km run, I'd have kept to that. According to my trusty pink Timex, first 10km 1:07, 36.36km cycle 1:29, last 5km 0:44. Plus transition wastage time I finished at 3:17.

Good start to 2011. Next race : OCBC 40km cycle in March.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Need a job

Many phone & F2F interviews, text/email/Linked In messages, friends who forwarded JDs/headhunter contacts...

I know I don't want a job with Electolux (vacuum cleaners?!!) nor a role to be based in Taiwan again.

Otherwise, I'm open to all possibilities.

Oh and being able to interview in Chinese was interesting especially since the call was unexpected. My linguistic abilities astound even myself. My command of the Chinese language has not gone to the dogs... yet.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Guess what? Exciting updates!

Er.. Nothing much happening of late.

Ok, started to run a little more regularly as preparations for Sunday's duathlon but otherwise nothing exciting nor happy to report.

Sigh...

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Happiness - where art thou?

I can't believe how everything soured so quickly. 

It was only a few months ago, I was happy.  New job, coming home to kakis who were willing to kill themselves with me on a daily basis, actually found some who were even more hardcore than myself and Zi (gasp! they exist?!), new beginnings, new hope, and when Zi became my colleague, that was really nice (albeit smelly toilets, but small price to pay).

So here I am... New year, new promise, stay positive.

Ecclesiastes Chapter 3
There is an appointed time for everything, and a time for every affair under the heavens.
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot the plant.
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to tear down, and a time to build.
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones, and a time to gather them; a time to embrace, and a time to be far from embraces.
A time to seek, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away.
A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to be silent, and a time to speak.
A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

Thursday, January 06, 2011

Alamak - kena rapped by God

Today's reading from 1 Jn 4:19–5:4.


Beloved, we love God because he first loved us.  If anyone says, “I love God,” but hates his brother, he is a liar; for whoever does not love a brother whom he has seen cannot love God whom he has not seen.
This is the commandment we have from him: whoever loves God must also love his brother.  Everyone who believes that Jesus is the Christ is begotten by God, and everyone who loves the Father loves also the one begotten by him.  In this way we know that we love the children of God when we love God and obey his commandments.

For the love of God is this, that we keep his commandments.  And his commandments are not burdensome, for whoever is begotten by God conquers the world.  And the victory that conquers the world is our faith. 

VO2Max

Started out as a casual chat between 2 belayers at Yishun...  between SJ & myself.  She moved to work in a US hospital but will be back in July for good.

I must've bitched to her about decreasing fitness vis-a-viz my age and she mentioned that VO2Max is different for each individual body.  That she has problems pushing her VO2Max levels up regardless of how hard she runs, compared say to someone else who naturally has high VO2Max.

Hmm... at that point, I realize I missed her!  I recall a similar conversation with her (goodness knows how long ago) about fast and slow twitched muscles and I believe she reassured me that my muscles are mostly slow twitched, hence better suited for climbing than a quick sprint to the finish with Zi.

Yeah, I like talking to SJ cos 1, she is very reassuring & uses technical mumbo-jumbo to make you feel good & 2, she is smart.  Of cos, smart and on your side is always a nice feeling!

Back to earlier topic - need to be encouraging to people around me this year.  Please excuse me now while I go watch 爱, in the process decreasing my VO2Max.

Pompeii - Life in a Roman town 79CE

Visited the exhibits at the National Museum yesterday.  Joined the guided tour and got a pretty good narrator, I didn't know that this is the first time they are exhibiting stuff outside of Pompeii itself - we are blessed, Singapore!

It ranged from interesting (Pompeii people ate out a lot in restaurants, cafes 2000 years ago!), to funny (there was a mosiac floor warning to 'beware of dog', just like us today!), to religious (there was no traces of Christianity even though Jesus had already died & resurrected earlier), to sad (the plastic casts moulds of people/animals in death).

A good exhibit, well worth visiting.  Am glad I went on a week day so it wasn't too crowded.  Yeah, there were still strangely, a lot of visitors.

Tuesday, January 04, 2011

What is love?

From 1 Corinthians 13.

Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, (love) is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth.

It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never fails. If there are prophecies, they will be brought to nothing; if tongues, they will cease; if knowledge, it will be brought to nothing.  For we know partially and we prophesy partially, but when the perfect comes, the partial will pass away.

This is why I feel I ought to keep it up for Moo - because firstly, my gestures are kind.  And I endure it.  This is love (how I feel about it, ie emotions set aside).

Monday, January 03, 2011

Godfrey

hello!


sitting close-by

dozing at my feet

Calvin had found a lost dog, another snautzer, while walking Josh & Toby. He waited in the park with the lost dog for a while then went home.


He asked if mom & I if we would dog-sit Godfrey for a few weeks since 3 dogs in 1 HDB flat is a little bit to manage.

How'd we know he's called Godfrey (means God's peace)? Well when Calvin first saw Godfrey, he was running with a few kids and the kids were yelling Godfrey, actually they were saying "got 3", ie 3 snautzers. After he told us the story, we all had a good laugh, Godfrey is not a typical dog name. My mom better yet, asked innocently, how do you spell it, like "got free"? Groan.

Godfrey is a real sweetie. He is obedient and really easy to manage. Unfortunately, the next day after finding Godfrey, Calvin found a lost dog notice. He was however, very reluctant to return Godfrey and so we kept him another day.

Godfrey has been returned to his owner and his real name is Mazda. It's funny cos he really responds to Godfrey, I tried yelling Peter and Kenny at him, no response.

I miss him already. He was really close to me. Went everywhere with me, even the bathroom. He pokes his head in and leaned towards the toilet bowl. Had to physically shove him back out to yells of 'hey, i need my privacy!'. But the smart dog learns, my next toilet stop, he waited like a good dog just outside the door.

He sleeps on an old bedsheet just by my bed and whenever I nap, he naps. When I watch TV, he dozes at my feet. Every evening he'll get really eager for walks and he'll beg by jumping on his 2 hind paws and try to climb up me, then he'll race to where his leash is and point with his nose. So adorable!


Yeah, I love dogs. But honestly, I don't want my own. I'm blessed enough that I can play with Calvin's Josh (who adores attention), Toby (who needs to inspect the house and everything in it) and Michy's Kino (really smart and super obedient, until you take him out for a walk, then the whole neighbourhood gets terrorized).

Some pictures of Godfrey, mostly of him lying on the floor beneath me.

Thanks Godfrey (or real name Mazda) for the memories the last 3 days.

Saturday, January 01, 2011

So long 2010, hello 2011!

New year resolution time! I'm frankly not in the mood for it!

I am grateful for a lot : good friends who stoically stick around despite me not being the nicest friend back ; an amazing family ; experiences ranging from changing to losing jobs, India - a lifelong dream, having my own wheels again after 3 years of cabbing...

Guess the Lord has been much kind.

I hope in 2011 to,
- get married (hey, it's my blog and I'm gonna dream big)
- walk in the faith obediently
- be a better friend
- be good to my family
- find a suitable job with a mentoring boss
- be a good aunt/godma to Mattheus (I love u! Hi 5s!)
- buy my own apartment

Enuff. Let's not breed greed.

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

How to deal with betrayal

Ideally you see someone's true colors, find it unpleasant and make a beeline for the door.

Now how do you get rid of a lousy ex-friend who hasn't changed (still very much a taker & not shy about it) who's still hanging around the same social circles with you?

My Christian values says clearly to forgive, suck it up & love. But I just can't - not for a lousy person. It's not like charity, you just reach out and help. She's not needy, she's just a unrepentant taker, unabashedly so.

Telling her to her face what I feel about her would seem unkind. So what to do?

Friday, December 24, 2010

The reason for the season is Jesus.

Have a blessed Christmas everyone. May Jesus be in our lives always.

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Jin boh eng

Other than a handful of meetings with headhunters and a couple of interviews, I should be free & relaxed. But I'm not.

Reminds me of Parkinson's Law, which states

Work expands so as to fill the time available for its completion.

Jin bo eng! Gotta go.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Mental note to self : no spicy food at lunch

Probably after being in Taiwan where with the exception of mala hotpot, is a very bland cuisine in general.

I now cannot stomach firey Korean or anything too spicy at lunch which is typically my first meal of the day.

Bleeh!

Almost Christmas

I spent the last weekend attempting to walk 50km.  I was greatly humbled, when I decided to quit at the 26km mark when we walked by Buona Vista MRT station.  The soles of my feet, my foot arc, my knees and shoulders were aching, but most of all, my right ankle was starting to throb real bad.  I figured, I could endure the pain and finish the walk, but since I was that close to home and my good buddies were quitting as well, I might as well throw in the towel.

Walking, apparently, isn't all that easy.  I thought I could go on and on... My aged body didn't think so.

I've hung up the Christmas wreath, I've gone to Penitential mass, now it's time to prepare my list of blessings this year.  So here goes :
- traveled a fair bit in 2010 : US, India, HK, Shenzhen in China, Krabi again.
- my mom and I are friends now.  It's truly amazing.  I enjoyed India with her!
- my health is good and I'm healthier/sportier amongst my hardcore buddies.
- my hardcore buddies who are nice enough to know when to suck it in and when to buy me lunch.  Aww...
- the really smooth transition back to Singapore while balancing the demanding job in Motorola.  I love my car!
- enjoying the break and catching up with friends in a relaxed way not possible with a full time job.
- upgrading my status to Aunt-to-be cum godma-to-be with Ian & Michy's baby. 
- my family & friends who stuck by me through the icky times all thru the years.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

Through the eyes of a tourist

I've been playing tour guide, showing Ashley around.  We had bak-kut teh then we had drinks at the Marina Bay Sands.  MBS I think that's what it's known as in short.  Place seems ok, if they were attempting at sophistication, then it's not quite there.  They did however, reject our entry to the top floor bar on account of my flip-flops.  I pleaded Ashley's Taiwan-ness to no avail.  They did accept my running shoes (thankfully kept it in the car).  It was a rainy day, and the bar was full.  So we settled ourselves for a drink at the downstairs lobby lounge. 

Tomorrow I need to take her to Sentosa.  She seems to know exactly where she wants to go, makes my job easy :)

I'm baack, anyone missed me?

I needed a break from writing, not from a lack of content (I believe I can rant endlessly) but to calm myself down a little.

It's been rough of late. Emotionally, on the job front, and also I guess adaptation - much like a delayed reaction to my return to Singapore, straight into the thick of action.

I took 2 trips since quitting Motorola. India was another one of my longtime dreams, to see the Taj Mahal. And it was everything I imagined it to be, and way more! http://www.flickr.com/photos/8062670@N07/sets/72157625460539261/

Since my return, I've been surprisingly busy. There're still the sport activities with friends almost every night and in the day time, it's been either errands, or catching up with friends over lunch. Amazingly, it wasn't til Thu and Fri (yesterday & today) that I finally had a chance to sleep in.

I've still got a few more appointments to keep, IPL with Karen and I need to go shopping. Firstly to get a royal blue dress for Jo's wedding - I am to be Chinese MC & also 姐妹. Of all the friends I've done this for, this one should be the most fun. Looking forward to that.

Also on my to-do list : Christmas shopping. I tried, I honestly did. But it is too overwhelming walking the malls. A friend is going to donate $ she typically spends on Xmas gifts to charity this year. It's a little bit of a defeatist attitude in my case, but honestly, it sounds more practical.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

On a break

The writer is taking a 2 week break.

Back mid Dec for more exciting adventures of life in Fel-land.

Friday, November 12, 2010

On the cusp of a new life

This is it.

I'm once again, out on a limb.

Will it be a chance for a rest or will it be anxiety-stricken holiday season?

Tune in next episode!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Yesterday & today

Writing the date this month (quite a few days) feels totally binary.

E.g. today is 11/11/10.

-__-

The price of friendship

People are strange creatures. We are never happy.

Not too long ago, I was in Taiwan and hardly any friends. I was lonely.

Now I am surrounded by friends. But being around people brings with it the complexity of human relationships and in a few instances, brings back past hurts that I need to deal with over and over again.

Sigh...

Monday, November 08, 2010

Women Retreat at the St Ignatius spirtuality center

I declined the climb til your fingers break weekend with the gang.  And opportunistically, got an email invite from Diana Koh to join a long weekend retreat for women by women lay spiritual directors.  Since I am in a state of flux, I thought, perfect, time to spend the long weekend in deep prayer with God.

 
I admit, I wasn't good.  I checked in, found myself short of cash to pay for the weekend.  Right after lunch, I snucked out to the nearest ATM, ate ice cream by Ice Creamery nearby before returning to church reluctantly.  I snucked in naps during personal reflection time etc.. Alright alright, the solitary got to me cos it was a semi-silent retreat.  Which means, we did not talk at all the whole 3 days!

 
But I gained so much and am so glad I took the weekend out.  Especially :
  • Ignatian contemplation is interesting.  I need to go find out more.  I always thought it was too severe or too tedious.  That God loves us and WANTS us to draw near to Him, why bother to make it so tough?  But there are some interesting points Diana brought up. 
  • That prayer is quantity time, not quality time with Him.  Just give Him the time and who's to judge quality.  Which is so true.  Esp for someone who prays at the end of the day like me, it's like giving God the scraps from the day... ouch.
  • And I had abandonment issues.  Whew!  That while I will accept love, I do it to a limited degree only as an internal mechanism to protect myself.  This is a result of my dad dying on me!  Well, I'm sure he didn't choose to die on me... but nontheless.   http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Abandoned_child_syndrome  So some of the symptoms are listed here... I have a close friend whose parents divorced some years back.  I'm pretty sure she suffers from this.  She displays some of the symptoms (different from mine) listed.
  • That our God loves us very much, each and every one of us.  And that He loves us in numerous ways everyday, in the sunrise, in the morning breeze, in the bird's chirping. 
  • One of the presenters taught us this.  Be aware always, and to choose love, choose life, choose Him.  It's from Galatians... I'll need to refer to my notes later.  Her point is, in everything we do and say, be aware and choose the response that is for Christ/for love.  So if you start an argument with a family member e.g. choose the path that ends with love, perhaps give in even if you are right.  Which I really liked cos I've been struggling with this for a bit.  I feel we ought to be encouraging and supportive of each other, ie choosing life and love.  Not do the typical Singaporean talk which is somewhere between sarcasm and taunting.

Final word on which ministry.  I had expressed fears to my assigned SD that I did not want to return to my old ministry mostly because I have recurrent nightmares about returning to life circa 2007.  She said that sometimes the ministry you are in is required by God - as a gem being polished.  Hmm... Never saw it that way.

 
O and about returning to life circa 2007, fact is I have changed.  I'm not the same Felicia I was pre-Taiwan.  Sure I remember the past hurts and all, but I've taken it all in stride, changed and moved on.  Just dislike it when people from my old life assumes they know me well.

 
More later, I'm busy >_<

Friday, November 05, 2010

I have tendovaginitis?

My right hand ring finger & left hand middle finger are both rather sore from overclimbing.  Saturday's climb session in particular was pretty bad seeing how the soreness which usually recedes after a day or 2 did not, despite my taking enough care to ice the tweaked fingers on Sunday morning.


I skipped the usual Tue climb night pleading that my fingers need a break.  Ms Hardcore expressed concern and even did some research for me.  She sent me an email saying that I have a condition called tendovaginitis.  I reprint excepts from her email :


Tendovaginitis is the inflammation of the tendon and its surrounding sheath, also known as the synovium. Some tendons are covered by the sheath but there are others which are not. The synovium produces a small quantity of oily fluid that is released in between the tendon and its overlying sheath. This oily fluid helps the tendon to move smoothly and freely as it pulls on the attached bone.
The common signs of tendovaginitis are pain, swelling and tenderness on the affected joint. In most cases, movement of the inflamed joint must be reduced immediately to allow healing to take place. At times, the pain lasts for a couple of days and goes away without any need for medical treatment and medication. But in other instances, the pain and swelling continues for months especially if the injury is left untreated


If you're thinking, aww, your friends care so much.  Think again.


Jo nagged me so after the climb, we found a 24hour clinic nearby the coffee shop in Yishun.  And she was sweet enough to accompany me to see the doctor. 


We had this really young-ish male doctor.  He muttered something like he didn't know what to write as diganosis.  So in a ta-dah moment, I offered him help, whipped out my iPhone and found that very helpful email on the condition I have.  He did very well not to burst into laughter.   Then he wrote tendonitis on a piece of paper for me and said he assumes my vagina is fine - just the finger that's hurting.   >_<


Of cos Jo laughed hysterically all the way back to the carpark.  Bet she's telling Eric and they're both laughing again.


I need new friends. 

Wednesday, November 03, 2010

Squashy feeling...

All Saints day at noon mass in Novena church.  Warden goes - can we squeeze so we can fit more people in each pew please?... Felicia ends up praying like a T-Rex.

All souls day at evening mass in St Mary of the Angels with mom so we can visit Pa's niche afterwards.  Church was packed even though we arrived early.  Probably cos of the blessing of the niche service after mass.  Mom went to chope us seats while I visited the bathroom.  Again, Felicia had to pray like a T-Rex with her bag on her lap the whole time.

I wanna roar now!  Gimme space!  I am feeling claustrophobic!

Immigrant Job Gains, Native-Born Job Losses

I have a feeling, Singapore is the same case.
http://economix.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/11/02/foreign-born-job-gains-native-born-job-losses/

Monday, November 01, 2010

Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all you who labor and are burdened, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am meek and humble of heart; and you will find rest for your selves.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden light.

Tweaked fingers

Swollen finger.  Ow, ow!
Tried icing it down on Sunday but it is still painfully swollen.  Ironically I hurt it first during river tracing in Taiwan flying down a waterfall badly.  Must've splatted the hand against a rock. 

Friday, October 29, 2010

Everyday is sports day

I remember someone who meant something to me at that time, ask me "does everyday need to be sports day?"

Ironically, it's where I am today. 

Monday - Macritchie trail run then play badminton
Tuesday / Thursday / Saturday - Climbing
Sunday - Cycle East Coast

Leaving me only Wednesday nights for now since I still have the PLT meetings to run and Friday nights to recover

Whew!

Thursday, October 28, 2010

The day my neglected/forgotten faith collided with my world

I've been back in Singapore some 3 months now, but have not gotten around to thinking/working towards rejoining ministry nor meeting up with Sister Lily.

I did however, sign up for a retreat over Deepavali after receiving a very timely email from Diana Koh.  Plan was to use that as an opener.

But God has His own plans, on His own schedule.

After lunch time mass at Novena, I bumped into Gwen.  She was really warm and excited plus a little annoyed that I didn't tell her I was back for good!  Wanted to throw me back into my old ministry again!  She kept repeating, we need young people, even after I leaned closer to say I ain't that young no more! 

While talking to Gwen, I spotted Sister Lily.  Very unexpected that she would attend Novena church lunch time mass - since it is so far away from her place of home/work.

I promised Sister Lily I'll come by her home so we can catch up and talk.  And promised Gwen that yes, I will catch up with her as well - as for returning to Cafe, well, let me think and consider about that.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Nike City 10K race results

This year's Nike race pits our northern neighbours versus us.  Interesting.

Naturally Singapore won overall.
http://nikerunning.nike.com/nikeos/p/nikeplus/en_SG/plus/#//challenges/detail/538217368

Also my 2nd race since back on home soil.  I am glad to help contribute my 10k worth of sweat towards Singapore.  And am glad to run faster, making up for the slow race at the Sheares bridge.
http://www.nikecity10ksingapore.com/tools/results/index.php

Majulah Singapura!

For we walk by faith, not by sight!

From One Way Jesus :
You are the way, the truth and the life.
We live by faith and not by sight. 

Was feeling a little down, a little unhappy again.  As I drove out to lunch, I reminded myself of my blessings and it took me a while to list it all down.  I am comforted.

On the drive home, this song played loud. 

A good reminder that while I may not see His path for me, there is no need for anxiety, but to walk by faith in Him.

Need a job...

Need a job... and soon.  Time's running out...

The link between earthquakes and volcano eruptions

The scientists have been saying this, without conclusive reasoning, but with statistical info, that earthquakes seem to trigger volcano eruptions.

But a 7.7-magnitude undersea quake epicentered off to the south of Sumatra, the remote Mentawai Islands followed by the eruption of the nearby Mount Merapi.

Sadly, the earthquake also caused surge as high as 10 feet and advanced as far as 2,000 feet inland on Mentawai Islands. 

I hope Singapore will reach out to help the Indonesians.

http://www.nytimes.com/2010/10/27/world/asia/27indo.html?ref=world

A small part of me was hoping the tsunamis will douse the forest fires in Sumatra, producing smoke and haze into the air affecting neighbouring Malaysia and us.  A quick check of the hotspots charts shows the rainforest fires are too north and too inland.  But of cos right... Sigh...
http://www.weather.gov.sg/wip/web/ASMC/Haze_Information/Regional_Haze_Map

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Monday, October 25, 2010

How to die over a weekend

I wanted to climb bad, had arranged with SB and Moo to go climb after breakfast. 

But I couldn't say no to my old friends.  So I stayed to play badminton/ping-pong with them.

It was 4 hours of badminton with mad-cap/hardcore people who do not just hit the shuttlecock back, they WHACK it.  Just hearing the piak-piak sounds makes you cringe inwardly.  Thankfully they were really nice to me.  Against each other, they really WHACK it. 

Tired?  You can take a break from badminton with ping pong against a ping-pong machine.  It spits balls and you try your darnest to return the balls.  Every couple of minutes, you need to stop the machine cos the badminton players will start yelling when your errant balls all over the floor starts to roll over to where they are.  As you pick up balls, you need to sing Derek's son's song - pick up balls, pick up balls... my fair lady!

Great fun.  I am glad I stayed.

Sunday was truly choc-a-block, full day of activities.  I ran the Nike City 10k race then rushed to mass.  Towards the end of mass, all expectant mothers were asked to stand for a special praying over and during the prayer, church bells toll!   Hmmm... I like to think my little godson is made for big things in life!
We then had lunch on mom cos she lost the bet :) After lunch, I played with Kino for a bit (he's so cute when he's been playing in the rain and is all semi-wet).  Drove mom back in time to catch her weekend afternoon Korean TV hour.  Next stop - Vivi's prawn noodle party.  By the time I arrived, the vultures had had their fill : some had 4 bowls, others even tabao-ing 2 tingkats.  2nd lunch for me!  And washed it down with 3 bowls of soup.  Possibly the best prawn noodles in the world.  All natural and freshness.  I barely itched!  I didn't even need to anti-histamine myself that night. 

Ah, but the day is not yet over!  Drove back home, nap 15mins, back out to cycle with the gang.  I kept with the peloton up and down the slopes of Loyang, through sheer grit.  But died on the return ride to the carpark.  From 30km/h to 28, then 24, finally it was between 20 to 21km/h as I rolled into the carpark.  Pengsan!

Great weekend, I cannot ask for more when there is God, family, good friends, great food and lots of fun sporting activities.  I can die contented now. 

Thursday, October 21, 2010

NParks tree pruning

NParks has been busy pruning tree branches ahead of the monsoon season.  As you can see, they've been erring on the side of caution, think they chop too much off.  Trees look positively botak now.



Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Bad air again :(

The Indonesians are at it again - slashing and burning the rain forests.

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/1088052/1/.html

PSI is now 80, creeping towards the unhealthy mark...

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Egos

While washing my cup this morning in the pantry, this lady next to me asks if I were a runner. 

Ego inflated, must be my toned calves and my athletic gait - I think to myself.

I reply her, sometimes, why?

She gestures at my Timex watch.

-__-

Monday, October 18, 2010

Another weekend in KL, another set of swollen fingers

Jo/Muk had arranged to take a bus up to KL again to climb.  It sounded great on paper : Aeroline bus, staying in the heart of KL city, the hardcore group together again...

But things started to unravel even before we set off : Derek was in another of his moments, he was driving up with Corinna.  Jo stubbed her toe so bad, losing a toenail and had to bail on the trip.  Viv was all emotional, stressed over OBS and job applications.

This time, there was less camaraderie (in fact felt like almost 0), a lot of solo moments.  Which is a huge departure from how it used to be. 

So I focused instead on climbing.  I know I used to climb pretty hard with Derek as well - but somehow this trip's toil on my fingers is bad - I know what Michy will say : 老了!

Feel like taking the afternoon off to sleep.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Chilean miners are free

I can't imagine surviving 4miles underground for 69 days.  Thankfully they were safely rescued. 

Job offers - 0 ; annoying calls from insurance agencies - 5

I keep getting calls from insurance agencies asking if I am still looking for a job, I answer yes.  And then they will ask if I am interested in being a financial consultant.  Sorry, it's a no. 

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

As good as it gets?

I'm touched by
- a few ex-colleagues for their efforts at playing job placement agents
- being able to eat fantastic chappati/naans anytime and with great companionships
- being able to go to mass almost everyday (even though I only manage perhaps 2/3 week day masses a week)
- madcap & competitive kakis who will race me to the car at all costs...
- a very comforting Michelle who will chat with me over MSN daily even though I'm no longer in Taiwan. 

Perhaps this is as good as it'll get... I am glad.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Macritchie trail running

I've been running at Macritchie for a long time now.  I've ran there through good times and bad.  With my ex-bf, with friends...  It's just that in the last 4 years or so, I've grown accustomed to running alone (and my IPod). 

My point is :
- I'm familiar with Macritchie - even with the newly spruced up carpark and the no longer free parking :(
- Running alone, you listen to your body better.

Yesterday I ran with Ms Hardcore at Macritchie.  She doesn't slow down at the downhills, she just tears down.  It took quite a lot of effort (run harder at the uphills) in order to catch her.  Then we ran the last bit together, and out of trail onto road. 

At the last slope before the carpark, I attacked her (figuring that 1, she's tired from the sound of her heavy footsteps and 2, she probably wasn't aware of that last slope, surely feel demotivated on seeing it).  But to my surprise, she had more in her, she ran faster! 

In short, it was a sprint to the car.  And I won.  And yes, it hurt doing so, bringing back memories of our hardcore past.  Nice...

Monday, October 11, 2010

Speed demon

Anyone who knows me knows I do not drive fast.  I'm not limited by engine capacity, I'm held back by my mental capacity for speed (or rather, the lack of it).

Since I started driving and working in Motorola, I've received 2 warning letters from the traffic police on excessive speed.  Where are they hiding!  Grr...

That's it.  I'm taking PIE/CTE from tomorrow.  I can't risk the $130 + 4 demerit points.

Thursday, October 07, 2010

On leaving at 4pm from work

Starting this week, I have started to leave at 4pm, if there are no more loose ends to tie up.  Since I have night conference calls to take, might as well leave early.

Yesterday afternoon, things had wound down enough to leave at 4pm again.  And I had sent out the agenda for my PLT meeting on Tuesday, so nothing much left after lunch to do.

I left at 4pm with Viv and we went to attack the muddy trails of Macritchie reservoir.  My 2nd this week and Viv's first ever trail run (yes, I questioned her Singaporean-ness, she has never ran at Macritchie?!!).

As we left Motorola, Viv noticed a few police outriders, some VIP she commented.  Then we noticed there were people lining the streets gawking.  So, I did what was most natural - put my shortsighted glasses on.  Next thing we saw this gun carriage go by...  I assumed it was LKY's wife's (what is her name? who cares?) funeral cortege going by.  Much later that night, watching the late night news confirmed that yes, her cortege went by Upper Thomson Road and that she was given the honour of a gun carriage for the final ride to Mandai crematorium.

I'm a little on the fence with regards to her contributions to Singapore.  LKY - yes for sure, undeniable.  But his wife?  The late Ong Teng Cheong didn't even receive that honour and his contributions to nation building are unquestionable.

Sigh.. politics. 

Back to more interesting matters - Viv and her first time at Macritchie.  Her natural running pace is faster than mine, so she'll run, then slow down when she is unsure of the path to wait for me.  At the turnaround point, we chose to run the boardwalk so she can get a view of how beautiful the reservoir is (and I get to run on level ground instead of the hilly trail).  Once on the boardwalk, level and easy, she flew ahead.  Suddenly she appeared running back to me.  When she approached, she said "monkey!".  All 1.53m of Viv cowered behind me, afraid of the monkey troup sitting on the boardwalk nonchalantly picking their fur.  Once we cleared the monkey danger, she flew ahead again easily....  I really doubt her Singaporean-ness, she has not seen monkeys?!!

Back at the car, she said to me, 'Oh you mean that was trail running?'.  That's what happens when you spend too many years overseas.

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Of Tuesdays, conference calls and climbing

I left Viv in the lurch (potentially no belayer), Zi slogging at her desk to return home and then at 7pm I received an SMS to say I did not need to attend the 9pm conference call?

The good news is, from next week onwards, Tuesdays are gonna be climbing nights again!

It's like that Pet Shop Boys song, goes something like, now I can climb all Tuesday nights, forever... how am I gonna get through, how am I gonna get through?

Sigh... I need a job! *whine*

Monday, October 04, 2010

It's 9.38pm and I'm in the office...

I scheduled a conf call for 10.30pm Monday evening since I had a dinner date with my girlfriends.

But one of the members had a time clash and requested that I pull in the conf call to 9.30pm.

So I eat with my girlfriends nervously, left at 9pm, returned to the office (it's nearer than home).  Came in, sat down and saw that one of the key members did not accept the call.  I dial his mobile and he's not answering.  Then I postpone the call to tomorrow, since Mike's presence is very important.

Bah... this is not fun at all.  What am I doing to myself, Felicia Cheng?

Recounting a dream

I woke up Sunday morning remembering my strange dream.

I dreamt I lost 1 side of my Crocs slippers at what seems like a rockclimbing area.

I asked a lot of people to help me find.  But people though nice, made tokens efforts, most produced an obviously wrong slipper then went away.  There were maids, some were my friends, others strangers...

In the meantime, I'm walking around barefoot, holding the 1 side of the slipper I still had...

Finally I woke up, still missing the slipper.

So this morning, I googled what it would mean :
To dream that your one of your shoes has been lost or stolen could denote you will have a loss, but will gain in some other pursuit.

Linked to the job situation is my guess.

Friday, October 01, 2010

I survived!

It's pretty strange :
1. yesterday's first reading at mass was on perserverance.  On Job praising God even though his friends blamed his bad luck on him!  So much for lousy friends.
2. I learned a new word - 自强不息.

I survived the rerun of the M11 checkpoint which prompted me to quit in the first place.  It strangely went through smoothly.

Guess the pressure's off now.

Last night's climb session was good.  The whole gang was there, and when that happens, it is more talk and laugh then actual climb.  Got arm-twisted to join a 50km walk in December, along with 5 other mad people. 



Poor injured Yili also offered me her place in the year end Standard Chartered.  Her impending surgery means she'll be on crutches for a while, so guess I get to run the half-marathon after all!  She did however, asked me to please run faster and not to ruin her good name.  Duh! 

The week is starting to turn good.  Thank you Lord!

Monday, September 27, 2010

Monday Blues...

I could sing an Elvis blues song today...

Feeling tired and I guess depressed from the aftermath of last week - possibly among the worst encounters in my work life. 

Hopefully I find something new soon, or the blues will extend.

Sigh.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

The Great White shark

After another painful conference call, where we argued back and forth until almost 12.30am, I went to the living room, turned on the TV - yes, it's that bad.  I had to de-stress. 

There was this program on about scientists who tagged Great White sharks and wondering why they swim 6 months to get out to the middle of nowhere (off US).  The purpose was to find a Great White in that area, check its stomach contents to see what it eats.
http://animals.nationalgeographic.com/animals/fish/great-white-shark.html

I'm reminded how huge a Great White is... averaging lengths of 6m ; weighing 2000-ish kg.  See the picture from the National Geographic site : HUGE!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

My new colleague - Yingzi

Zi joined Motorola this week.

Like me, she also received a used NB, lack of support with productivity tools... Groan.

But the difference is, she hit the road running.  Seemingly doing well.  She was working well when I walked by her to chat.

Me, on the other hand, hit the road with my face and got dirt up my nose and in my teeth.  Sigh...

Of shocks, nots and rocks

Shocks :
Met up with my best friend and we sat down at Haagen Daz after sticking her boys at the Animal Kaiser arcade machine with the maid.  While chatting, she told me that a lot happened in the 3 years I was away.  One of our mutual friends found out earlier this year that her husband had a 2nd family.  I was blown away.  David has been with the PAP forever and at every upcoming general elections, we expect him to be a new MP.  Now you're saying he has a 2nd family complete with 2 kids?!  WTF.  I feel so sad for Q, she's sweet and smart and a really cool mom - I really don't know what she'll do now.

Nots :
I am not enjoying my new job.

Rocks :
Zi joined Moto yesterday.  The toilet stinks now, but it's nice to have her as a colleague!  Especially when she walks up to my cube and grins her silly chesire cat grin.

It's only Tuesday, I can hang in there...

Thursday, September 16, 2010

What do people do on their smartphones?

http://bits.blogs.nytimes.com/2010/09/14/report-looks-at-trends-with-mobile-apps/?src=tptw

So true, I play the dumbest games but I do it everynight!

Little joys in life - driving home at dusk

So ok, I often get the setting sun in my eyes...

But I really like these moments, driving my car in the evenings, relaxed, on a route with lots of green. 

Got a song in my head...

I know people raise eyebrows at my choice of music.  But I like Eminem, the edginess in his songs is so real - life is exactly like that, people never the way you expect or want. 

So his new song - Love the way you lie is so cool!  I think it is reflective of human relationships, beyond BGR... 

Monday, September 13, 2010

Last race as a 30-something...

A watershed moment for me as far as races goes - my last race as a 30-something.  Sigh..  I can still recall my first race, Sheares Bridge 10K run in 2003 and the starting point was the National Stadium.  Feels like a lifetime ago.

This year, they renamed it to the Safra Singapore Bay run/Army Half marathon, or whatever the real name is.  It's a nice new route through the new Singapore bay, through the Helix bridge, the F1 grand prix circuit by the grandstands, past the spanking new Marina Sands casino so new that I can smell the concrete still.  Nice route, very enjoyable.

Since I'm still a little sick since last week in HK when an inconsiderate man coughed square into my face, giving me a throat infection.  And I have not done a run longer than 5k since probably May's 17k trail run in Taipei.  My game plan was to go slow, keep running til at least the 15k and enjoy the run as far as I can.  So doing a time of 2.55 is good enough for now.

So I'm reaching for my little plastic bag of salonpas... my legs (every single part from the hip joint to the calf muscle), my shoulder blade area, my abdominals, all hurt.  Good news is my ITB held, not a twitch from either side, the left patella ached around the 18k mark & went away after I slowed the pace (cos I was too exhausted!).

You know how they often have uplifting messages along the run route?  I loved this one :
Sign 1 - Run run run!
Sign 2 - Walk if you can't...
Sign 3 - Crawl if  you must!

Oh I want this so bad!

I want the new iPod Nano.

It's shrunk to a size that is simply perfect!  And you can wear it as a watch?

*drools*

We are no. 20 - Newsweek’s list of the 100 best countries in the world

Singapore is listed as no. 20 in Newsweek's report of the best 100 countries.

We're behind our fellow Asia + Pacific countries - Australia (ranked no. 5), Japan, NZ, Korea (no. 15).

As expected, we were marked down for political environment, scoring only 53.26%.  It's kinda hard to stomach this, considering Croatia had 70+, even Philippines had 58. 

I'll take our "police state" status versus an unstable/inept or corrupted government - so if it means the world scores us down for that, I could live with it.

Go Singapore!

Thursday, September 09, 2010

Cheated!

On the cusp of a long weekend, I decided to try for evening mass at Holy Spirit church.  It's more along the way home than Novena church.  And I was leaving office early anyways, so 6pm mass is better.

Guess what.  I was cheated of mass.  Mass on that day was either 7.30 or 8pm that night - the lady I asked was not sure.  Cheated of mass!

Called Michelle and we both had dinner, played a little with Kino - he barked at her when she caught his toy while playing catch.

Then went home for another painful conference call.  This project is starting to really be painful....

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

Weight

Stood on scale this morning. 

Weight - 49.0kg ; body fat % - 22.5.

Climb 2x a week + run around the Yishun block before each climb.  Cycling 30k every Sunday. 

It is all working well.  This is inspite of my crazy conference calls almost every night.

Not bad indeed. 

Not bad at all.

I am grateful, Jesus.  Thank you Lord.

I am RC

Chatting with an ex-US colleague this morning and I commented that I am happily indulging in my 3Cs these days : catholicism, climbing and cycling.

He commented that they're all RC :
- rock climbing
- road cycling
- roman catholic

Hmmm...

Ok, I am RC then!  And very happily so!

To be honest, it's part of the reason why I chose to return to Singapore.  To be a better RC : roman catholic and rock climber, road cyclist came as a bonus.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Luke on TV

This is a notebook I helped work on.  Cost a lot of pain, grief, and it ended up being nicknamed 'tippy'.  Sigh.

But it made a lot of news (good news, at that)
http://wn.com/HP_TouchSmart_tm2_on_Lifetime_series_Project_Runway

Life's strange like that.  What/who you anticipate to succeed, doesn't, and the reverse strangely often does.  Hmmm...

First fight with mom

Yesterday mom and I had our first verbal war.

Mom's prayer group had secured some tickets to the play "A Reluctant Saint" on the life of St Alphonsus.  I said I wanted to go, so mom got me a ticket as well.  She told me, Sep 6 Tuesday.  I wrote down Monday Sep 6 on my calendar. 

Yesterday, Monday, Sep 6 morning as I was leaving for work, she started talking about Tuesday arrangements.  I said "isn't it tonight? I even canceled tonight's conference call!".  She starting yelling at me.

But I have 3 conference calls on Tuesday, first one begins at 7.30pm and they are back to back until 11pm.  What am I to do?  I was exasperated so I said I will pay back for the wasted ticket but really what to do at this last minute?  Then I left the house for work, in a huff.

By the time I had arrived in the office, I felt bad.  So I called her back and surprisingly she was nice.  She said she'll ask Calvin to drive her and her friends there instead and Calvin will use the ticket so no wastage. 

Last night when I got back, she was a little pissed still but she wasn't angry.  Whew!

Monday, September 06, 2010

Living life with a vengence...

When I work, I work feverishly...
When I cycle, I push and my thighs burn and I push some more to hit... 34.5km/h top speed...
When I pray, I pray beggingly... humbly...

Life of late, has been full of superlatives. 

And I miss Ms Hardcore...