Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I need to trust the Good Shepherd more totally!


John Chapter 10
* “Amen, amen, I say to you,a whoever does not enter a sheepfold* through the gate but climbs over elsewhere is a thief and a robber.
But whoever enters through the gate is the shepherd of the sheep.
The gatekeeper opens it for him, and the sheep hear his voice, as he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out.
* When he has driven out all his own, he walks ahead of them, and the sheep follow him, because they recognize his voice.But they will not follow a stranger; they will run away from him, because they do not recognize the voice of strangers.”Although Jesus used this figure of speech,* they did not realize what he was trying to tell them.
 * So Jesus said again, “Amen, amen, I say to you, I am the gate for the sheep.
* All who came [before me] are thieves and robbers, but the sheep did not listen to them.
I am the gate. Whoever enters through me will be saved, and will come in and go out and find pasture.
A thief comes only to steal and slaughter and destroy; I came so that they might have life and have it more abundantly.  I am the good shepherd. A good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.
A hired man, who is not a shepherd and whose sheep are not his own, sees a wolf coming and leaves the sheep and runs away, and the wolf catches and scatters them. This is because he works for pay and has no concern for the sheep.
I am the good shepherd, and I know mine and mine know me,
just as the Father knows me and I know the Father; and I will lay down my life for the sheep.
I have other sheep* that do not belong to this fold. These also I must lead, and they will hear my voice, and there will be one flock, one shepherd.
This is why the Father loves me, because I lay down my life in order to take it up again.
No one takes it from me, but I lay it down on my own. I have power to lay it down, and power to take it up again.* This command I have received from my Father.”
Again there was a division among the Jews because of these words.
Many of them said, “He is possessed and out of his mind; why listen to him?”
Others said, “These are not the words of one possessed; surely a demon cannot open the eyes of the blind, can he?”
The feast of the Dedication* was then taking place in Jerusalem. It was winter.
* And Jesus walked about in the temple area on the Portico of Solomon.
So the Jews gathered around him and said to him, “How long are you going to keep us in suspense?* If you are the Messiah, tell us plainly.”
Jesus answered them, “I told you* and you do not believe. The works I do in my Father’s name testify to me.
But you do not believe, because you are not among my sheep. My sheep hear my voice; I know them, and they follow me.
I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish. No one can take them out of my hand. My Father, who has given them to me, is greater than all,* and no one can take them out of the Father’s hand.
* The Father and I are one.”
The Jews again picked up rocks to stone him.
Jesus answered them, “I have shown you many good works from my Father. For which of these are you trying to stone me?”
The Jews answered him, “We are not stoning you for a good work but for blasphemy. You, a man, are making yourself God.”
* Jesus answered them, “Is it not written in your law, ‘I said, “You are gods”’?
If it calls them gods to whom the word of God came, and scripture cannot be set aside,
can you say that the one whom the Father has consecrated* and sent into the world blasphemes because I said, ‘I am the Son of God’?
If I do not perform my Father’s works, do not believe me;
but if I perform them, even if you do not believe me, believe the works, so that you may realize [and understand] that the Father is in me and I am in the Father.”
[Then] they tried again to arrest him; but he escaped from their power.He went back across the Jordan to the place where John first baptized, and there he remained.
Many came to him and said, “John performed no sign,* but everything John said about this man was true.”
And many there began to believe in him.

And today's gospel reading. 

GospelLk 1:46-56

Mary said:

"My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord;
my spirit rejoices in God my savior.
for he has looked upon his lowly servant.
From this day all generations will call me blessed:
the Almighty has done great things for me,
and holy is his Name.
He has mercy on those who fear him
in every generation.
He has shown the strength of his arm,
and has scattered the proud in their conceit.
He has cast down the mighty from their thrones
and has lifted up the lowly.
He has filled the hungry with good things,
and the rich he has sent away empty.
He has come to the help of his servant Israel
for he remembered his promise of mercy,
the promise he made to our fathers,
to Abraham and his children for ever."

Friday, March 23, 2012

Parable of the Prodigal Son

I have been feeling like the resentful, angry elder son from the parable of the Prodigal Son.  Re-reading Henri Nouwen's chapter on the resentful, angry elder son and it really resonates with me.  Like the elder son, I have done the dutiful thing all my life, do all the right things at the right time to everyone around me (or at least I attempted).  All I have gotten in return is betrayal, disloyalty, people who use you, people who use you, take you for granted and finally spit on you.  Must everyone else in the world be the younger son (from the parable)?  And the people who are the fathers, can't you do more than just look benignly on?

I feel totally used & abused. Yet, I can't be the younger son, I just can't. I am doomed to be abused.  Call me masochistic.  The remedy is the new home - to be my getaway from the world.  I have thus named it, Operation Regain Sanity.

Progress report on Operation Regain Sanity, shortlisted 2 homes that were "livable" (not quite "buy me!").  I deployed extra judges Ian/Michy/Matty to help me look at those 2 apartments last Sunday.  They preferred the second one, adjacent from the new 112 Katong mall.  But for 2 things : ask price at $1.125million & no carpark for visitors. Ian asked me, where do you expect your guests to park?  Er..  I don't intend to have guests.  Close friends/family, yes.  But no guests.  Alas, the seller stood firm on the ask price, so Operation Regain Sanity (or ORS) continues this Saturday.

Here's a happy thought for a Friday : my sayang watching Sesame Street on Youtube on his iPad.  The media is different, but the content the same!  And don't you just love the tshirt I bought him from Old Navy?

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Viewing apartments in the east

I like the Telok Kurau area, it feels very residential yet easily connected via the park network connector (PCN) direct to the East Coast park.  My plan is to rise early to either ride/run along the beach often.

Have gone on 2 viewing sessions and not seen anything perfect yet, so far,
- Aquene : don't like the neighbours to the left (appears to be a chinese 会馆) and to the right (Buddhist temple).
- Costa Este :3 bedroom 850 sq ft.  Very tight squeeze.  Gives you a very cramped feel.
- Callidora Ville : didn't like the unit cos it's second floor, darkish and gives a very cramped feel overall.
- Blu Coral : don't like the odd shaped layout of the living room.
- Whitescape : newly TOPed, so brand new.  But expensive and small.  Like it overall except for the price & the combined laundry with kitchenette - feels too service apartment-ish.
- Axis@Siglap : didn't like the unit which overlooks directly into the HDB apartments next door.

Praying hard that the search be over very soon.

Monday, March 12, 2012

Prayers for everyone

This Monday morning I would like to pray for,
- vocations in the church
- healing/recovery & good health for Mel, Grace, Ss Lily, Zi's back injury and, the sick all over the world
- Matty my sayang.  Bless him abundantly as he prepares to turn 1 year old in 2 weeks!
- all souls particularly my pa, grandparents.  May purgatory be emptied today
- that single people not be single longer
- that lonely people find Your comfort and human friendships
- that the Holy Spirit be with all who call on You
- that I find the perfect apartment in the East at a steal real soon
- that relationships be easier and smoother (yes, I still struggle with mom, think she's angry at me again).
- that Japan finds Your comfort in their time of difficulty and grief as they overcome the loss of their home and loved ones with Your strength and Your providence.

I'll pray while covered in brain fog.  Napped 4hours yesterday after mass & a light lunch, then slept for 8hours yet still feeling sleepy.  1 cup of coffee later, still feel the fogginess around me.

Friday, March 09, 2012

The Commandments aren't rules, they are a promise!

At last night's CaFE session at Christ the King, we learned that if you see the 10 commandments as a promise, not as a set of "do not", it becomes a positive proposition of the future you will have! 

E.g. No. 5, you shall not steal, becomes instead, after you believe in God, you won't want to steal!  Aha, very nice.  This coming mid-lent, it is a refreshing view to take.  Thank you Jesus!

Bakery - Maison Kayser or Paul's?

I first told Michelle about Paul's Bakery when I first saw it being renovated in Takashimaya.  I loved the bread there and was quite a regular customer while living in Taipei.

They opened in December and Michy and I went there last month.  Actually she checked it out earlier, but my jaw/teeth weren't ready for bread then.  Of course, she brought little Matty along and it was just a fantastic meal.

Michy being Michy, she went on to discover Maison Kayser - a Japanese bakery in Paris, also recently opened in the new Scotts Square.  They even have Japanese staff.  The bread is finer, it's less expensive and less crowded considering I met Michy on a Friday afternoon and we still found seats without waiting (not quite the same case as Paul's with its long queues!).  I ordered the crochet set and unlike Paul's, it's crispy outside and soft inside.  Felt it was done very nicely.  I'm a convert.  Maison Kayser is great.

Tuesday, March 06, 2012

Updated Race Calendar for 2012

The Fear Challenge got canceled due to license issues.  They had included a river crossing in the route! Gasp!

So here's the updated calendar.  From my intended 3 or 4 races this year, it has somehow become 9 -__-

25 Feb - Singapore Duathlon (10km run / 36km cycle / 5km run)
1 Apr - 2XU Compression run (15km - taking Alex's place as he's traveling)
1 May - SIS Age Group run (10km - free race after the canceled Fear Challenge)
26 May - Adidas Sundown Marathon (half 21km)
1 July - Gold Coast Marathon (42km)
15 July - SIS Age Group run (15km - taking Manly's place as she's gone cycling)
Sep - Army Half Marathon (21km - if the route is nice)
Oct - North Face trail run (100km Duo - which means we run 50km each)
Dec - Standard Chartered Marathon (42km)

On a lazy Sunday evening

It was a lazy Sunday for me after the morning run.  After noon mass at St Ignatius, I went home and chilled, napped and by evening, decided to stay in afterall.

I do miss Matty though - thankfully I took this picture of him with his mom on Saturday night.

Then cos Peter displayed his medals, I was curious to know how many I chalked up over the years.  Not sure if I threw any away, but the tally stands at 18.  First medal was from 2003 and my most illustrious year was 2011 - 5 in that year alone.

Friday, March 02, 2012

Lental Fridays

The mind is a very strange thing.

Because of abstinence Fridays during Lent, I find myself positively ravenous Thursdays.  Last night I had ate supper in anticipation of a sad Friday - and I don't even have plans to fast Fridays!
(note - supper is a new concept to me, I find it hard to sleep on a bloated belly).

The mind is a very strange thing, indeed.

When tired, slow down?

I am tired all the time that it's become an annoying refrain.

1. I don't rest sufficiently for a long enough time for the fluey symptoms to go away completely since CNY.  So my lung capacity is really not there - I can't believe I raced last Saturday wheezing like an asthmatic patient.

2. I can't give 100% to my new job - unfair to the company cos I'm usually too comatose to think and patiently trawl through the emails.  I survive, but I'm not thinking of new ideas the way I used to cos my head is too throbbing usually.

3. Need to sleep more too.  Staying up late at nights to play Scramble til my coins run out is a poor excuse.
4. Need to practise my jaw exercises more.  Been lazy and hence no improvement.
5. Need to get to daily mass more - I have stopped my morning/noon mass routine.

Just as I have been thinking all these last few days, the Elephant's back decided to spasm up from all the torture she subjected her muscles to.  She's now on forced rest for a couple of weeks.

Common refrain?

Simplify and rest?  Which was my initial goal, to compete in less races this year, balance exercise with life and God better.  I'll take this good reminder.

Thursday, March 01, 2012

Why we slog so hard as weekend warriors!

I've always known visceral fats to be really bad for you - like it kills you.  But nothing like a visual update!


http://healthandfitnesswithadifference.blogspot.com/2011/11/have-you-seen-this.html?spref=fb

1984

It's George Orwell's 1984!

I studied this in school (a lifetime ago) about how your credit card spending and a computerized checkout system in a store can create a data mining system based on customer buying patterns.

It's taken a long while for someone to make it really work, but it seems Target has done it successfully done it now.

http://www.forbes.com/sites/kashmirhill/2012/02/16/how-target-figured-out-a-teen-girl-was-pregnant-before-her-father-did/